The
Pause that Refreshes
Genesis
31:49
Dear Readers,
In 2008 (as best I can remember) I began writing a column
for the Tunica Times, a weekly newspaper published in Tunica, Mississippi. At the time I was serving a church in that
town as interim pastor. I continued
writing the column until I moved to my current church, Graceland Christian (Disciples
of Christ) in Southaven, Mississippi. I
didn’t feel comfortable writing for a newspaper located in a town I no longer
had a direct connection with, so I switched to blogging. I’ve been doing this ever since, writing
every week unless we were out of town on vacation. For a while I even wrote then, until I figured
out that vacations were supposed to be a rest period from ordinary activities.
I’ve referred to this blog as my therapy. Writing is good for me. It helps me organize my thinking. I’ve worked out a lot of my own theology by
sitting down each week at the computer and wrestling with a topic or a passage
of scripture to try to decide what I believe.
I’m not sure I understand God any better than when I started writing,
but I feel more confident in many of my beliefs.
Recently this writing has become more of a chore than a
pleasure. It’s time for me to step away
for a while.
Some of you may remember the product for which the title
of this piece was once a slogan. I will
not mention that product in case using its name might involve copyright
infringement. This phrase represents my
thinking and feeling at this moment.
How long will this pause last? I’m not sure.
It may be a week, or a month, or longer, even much longer. The simple answer is, I guess, until I feel
refreshed.
This is not an easy decision, nor one quickly arrived
at. I’ve been considering this for a
while now. I will spend this week as I
do every week. I write my first draft on
Monday or Tuesday, then review it each day for the rest of the week, making
changes, and, I hope, improving my work.
Lately I’ve found myself putting off writing until Wednesday, a sign, I
think, that I need a rest.
I’m writing this on Tuesday. I’ll review it throughout the week. If by Sunday I still believe this is the
right decision, I’ll publish it. If not,
I’ll make some excuse for not writing this week and begin again next Monday. I think that’s the fairest I can be to
myself.
This may come across as self-serving, and perhaps it
is. But perhaps that’s all right. One thing I’ve learned over the past year is
how wonderful retirement can be when I let go of things. I think the lesson I’m learning is that
sometimes it’s okay to be self-serving, to let go of things and enjoy a slower
pace of life. At least that’s where my
thinking is right now.
And so I press the pause button. To you who have been with me on this journey,
thank you for your companionship and your attention.
May the Lord watch between thee and me while we are
absent from one another.